NEW YEAR <3

Today is New Years Eve, December 31, 2011. Reminiscing on the past year I do have to admit that it was a great year full of ups and downs and I do have a lot to be grateful for. I started the New Year full of changes the first being taking a trip to Europe alone with friends that helped me shape who I was emotionally and mentally. That was a trip that I will never forget full of memories and friends that will last a lifetime. The next big change was starting a new college in New York City. The first semester was a bit rocky and it was challenging. I did have a great time and an amazing support system from my family throughout that rough time.

The time came where I had a summer break where I spent at the Jersey Shore at Tiki Bar most of the time and that itself was amazing. Another amazing trip was to Atlantic City for my friends 21^st birthday. I took it upon myself to be more adventurous and that I was. I met some amazing people and did things that I normally would have never done.

The best surprise of all was going to Italy with my dad. At first I was hesitant because I was taking this trip alone with my father. We do have our differences but that is a summer that will always be cherished in my heart. My whole goal for that trip was to become closer to my dad and his side of the family. It was achieved and everyday there is a longing in my heart because I miss them immensely. It was a summer full of recollection and growing up. My dads side of the family is just so real and so full of love that its exactly what I needed.

The time came where the trip ended and it was back to reality here in America. I was VERY hesitant to start school again because I didn’t want the same experience as I had last semester. I went to the moving process with a positive attitude hoping for a fresh start. I am so thankful that I went in with an open mind because it was the BEST semester so far of my life. I have met some friends that will become lifelong friends. I am very thankful and lucky to live in the best city of the world because I have accomplished so much.

The year started off with meeting amazing friends and going to many extravagant things. Some of the semesters events include: Fashions Night Out, College Dorm Parties, COUNTLESS bars and clubs, San Gennaro Feast, Deadmau5 Concert ( beyond the best night in the City ), Central Park Sundays, Halloween 2011, My 22^nd Birthday..eleven.eleven.eleven, Ice skating, JINGLEBALL 2011 full of meet and greets and Fuse TV opportunity, Swedish House Mafia Concert, and many many more countless nights with friends that I will never forget !!!

Granted this semester was full of ups and downs with family and friends, but I have grown and learned who are by my side always. I would take nothing back from this past year, I am happy to say that some of my New Years Resolutions were accomplished and some still yet to come.

Resolutions 2012:

• ·      Be healthy and happy with myself inside and out.
• ·      Stop worrying, and just let LOVE find its course.
• ·      Get an internship or job opportunity.
• ·      Balance out my school and social life BETTER.
• ·      Save money.
• ·      Include many more concerts and fun activities in my life.
• ·      Be spontaneous, and enjoy my life!

You only got one life to live so live it up !! CHEERS to 2012 !!!

anxiety

What a day ! Finals all start on Wednesday and i got 23/40 pages of review done. I’m gonna go crazy within the next week. I can’t believe that in a week and a half i’m done. I’m already getting sad and anxious as to what will happen :(.

In 3 days things will change and its saddening. This will only be a test as to what Winter break will be like…

..another birthday comes again.

So my 22nd birthday is approaching this friday 11/11/11. This is just a weird birthday for me. My 21st birthday was one that I looked forward to and I was a totally different person then than I am now. I feel as though I am more independent and I also learned that I just need to stick up for myself.

The question I ask myself is though, why do I feel more distanced away from my family then I did last semester? I have been trying to be more balanced out with everyone, but those who actually matter and want to be in my life just don’t even try anymore. This is going to be the first birthday where I will be away from my family and just spend it with some REAL friends. This is also a birthday that will mark the first time since I was 16 that Byron will NOT be involved. It’s a bittersweet feeling because it’s the mark of something new to begin in my life, but also the end of what I felt for him. I can honestly say that I have absolutely NO feelings anymore. Anything that does come to my mind is just a distant memory. 

This birthday WILL be the start of something new and exciting.