So my 22nd birthday is approaching this friday 11/11/11. This is just a weird birthday for me. My 21st birthday was one that I looked forward to and I was a totally different person then than I am now. I feel as though I am more independent and I also learned that I just need to stick up for myself.
The question I ask myself is though, why do I feel more distanced away from my family then I did last semester? I have been trying to be more balanced out with everyone, but those who actually matter and want to be in my life just don’t even try anymore. This is going to be the first birthday where I will be away from my family and just spend it with some REAL friends. This is also a birthday that will mark the first time since I was 16 that Byron will NOT be involved. It’s a bittersweet feeling because it’s the mark of something new to begin in my life, but also the end of what I felt for him. I can honestly say that I have absolutely NO feelings anymore. Anything that does come to my mind is just a distant memory.
This birthday WILL be the start of something new and exciting.